So this is one of my favorite Shakespeare pieces to see- it's fast paced, full of comic characers, and light hearted.  And now it's been ruined.  Oy!   I went to see a friend in the play to support her.  She warned us that rehearsals had not gone well.  She wasn't kidding.  The lass who played Viola, the ever important lead, could not follow her blocking, could not be heard over her mumbling, and had on way more than stage makeup!.   She was playing the female lead who masks herself as a boy to survive and falls in love with her lord.  Boys do not wear purple eye shadow or bright red lipstick!  Well, ok, maybe in some circles they do, but this was set in WW2 Greece, so not there.  I was intrigued by the choice of setting.  It made since.  The stage looked great.  The costumes good (except for Viola constantly playing with her jacket and sleeves as it became apparent she didn't know what she was supposed to do with her hands!).   A few of the cast members had been on the Blackfryr cast  at PARF, including that which played Viola.  Now the friend, I adored.  She had a minor role, but was very expressive in it.  I hope her next audition gives her a bigger role.   I hope the director notices the talent and doesn't just look at the resume.  If he had, well more people may have stayed awake or just stayed during the performance.

We all know I don't post much.  Pretty much because it's a public forum, and not all the time do I want everyone knowing my business.  I vent here but i never mention names.  I rant, but I never point fingers.  But now I am frustrated because someone I thought was a friend crossed that line.  She named names.  And the worst part is that it didn't happen.  And now several people have been hurt by her posting and several friendships are over.  I said I didn't want drama in 2008.  I meant it.  I can't afford to take my heart pills because someone feels the need to make it all about them and get me involved.  I can't afford to lose sleep over whether or not what i said will be taken the wrong way and blown out of proportion. I can't afford to play the he-said/she said game.   I can't afford to lose the friends I have.   I can't afford to choose sides.  I shouldn't have too.  We're all f****** adults here, not in high school.   I value the people I call friend.  I trust the people I call friend.  Break that.  No longer a friend.  I am divorced due to broken trust.  I avoided my family for twenty years due to broken trust.  It's a lot easier to walk away then try and decipher the lies from the truth.  And when the choice is to walk away, that tends to tell me that that relationship was not as valuable as I thought.  It hurts.  I vested time and emotions into those relationships.  I was there when I could be.  I defended the actions of my friends.  I got angry.  I cried.  I lived in tension.  I am exhausted. 

That I did absolutely nothing today?

I had the day off so I cleaned my room.  Gawd!  I think it's been since July that I last did it.  Poor Kaptain was a confused little man, but change is good.  Three bags of trash and a mound of clothes to be donated later, I feel accomplished.